Nirvana

学到一课，在小本子上记下来：



1. 批评别人的时候并不表示我是对的

2. 生活里的事情的进展并不像是求解方程式：并不是按着理论上的正确值，依据相关公式就能求出正确的值。

  因为--- 第一变量太多，尤其是人的复杂性； 第二，没有绝对的正确值，一切都是相对的，而且是变化的。

3. 留学的经历在现阶段是会令人特殊的

  -----即使距“学成归来”都还有十万八千里的距离，即使在被人问到在国外学什么的时候，还惶恐心虚忐忑不安的不知如何回答的阶段，留学的经历已经让我被以特殊的眼光看待。

逐渐理解了一些毕业回来的海龟的心情：

我们在一个始终都鼓励自我表达的环境里逐渐习惯，但是还没有足够的时间学会与之匹配的表达的艺术。

如何在热切的希望分享在国外看到听到经历到的经验与如何表达如何分享的方式方法上的冲突，体现了不成熟。

由此涉及到了最重要的

4.交流是一项艺术，永远要讲究方法和方式，永远要避免良好的动机导致糟糕的结果。

海龟时常被人误会自以为是或自大无礼，即使还远不到海龟的级别，但也多少体会了。

其实所谓的炫耀是奢侈的行为，经历过在国外处于社会底层的艰苦生活，反倒在内心被打磨得更加低调和谦逊。

至于说希望在国内通过炫耀留学经历实现心理补偿，那也是简单的推想，经历过长时间的生活，早就明白“国外什么都好”是可笑的臆想。因为经历过，所有的好与坏，国内的或者国外的，因此都时常被放在同一个层面上直接比较。只不过在表达的过程中时常忽略了第4点。

在经过了前几年“人机对话”式的工作方式后，未来的工作应该会更多的进入“人际交流”的阶段。

这个夏天的经历，明白其底限所在的尝试，所有的经验，相信其意义会在未来逐渐体现。

由此要感谢那些提供机会的人，提供建议的人，，心怀感激。

首先谢谢帮我支招的朋友们，presentation已经顺利完成了。此次继续秉承“内容不足，形式为先”的一贯作风，从学校借了投影仪，自备电脑及一对音响，在ppt里加足照片，音频，视频。技术上做好了充分准备。另外，几年天足编辑生涯的锻炼，直接照着绝对巨星玛格丽特.杜拉斯的路子，操作起来倒也得心应手。时间紧迫无法备稿就直接采用现场胡喷的方式（脑中努力想象着斌老师纵横捭阖挥洒自如的英姿）加上教室里一时间声光环绕，直接被老师誉为具有浪漫主义风格的presentation。总之侥幸过关，而关于杜拉斯，我现在知道也照样不比你多。

接下来是两个法语等级考试，分别在四月下旬和五月下旬，别的不说了，光说报名费，加起来一共350欧，我打了20个晚上的工，全交进去了。

还有关于奥运圣火巴黎之行，遗忘的救主也大概光临了。上了一两天的头条，之后也就慢慢不提了，反正是一部分头脑简单狭隘到也就一直纸厚度的法国人，当天在街上和一干法国傻×吵过之后，发现法国人真是很傻很天真，藏独真是很黑很暴力。目前还听说国内掀起了声势浩大的反法运动，这么给他们脸干嘛？绝大多数法国人连去西藏看一眼的勇气都没有，也就偶尔上街胡乱抗议一下，能怎么着我们？倒是那天体会了一把当fans的心情，在铁塔底下等了近5个小时，也就大老远瞥到两眼圣火，没想到还有小小激动。

今天两件事：

第一件： 学潮？这有什么啊。。。

这次是巴黎中学生的，大概是抗议政府降低中学教育投入，致使教学质量不能保证，
学生们上街走走闹闹，前后防暴警察一拦，示威游行井然有序。

大家只要少开私车多做地铁就行，国家领导人被骂几句也没啥了不得的。。这种事没必要藏着掖着防着，不就是学潮嘛。。

第二件事：祸从口出，言多必失

法国文学选读课上，讲到杜拉斯，我随口插了一句杜大妈有点东方情节，就此被老师抓住，鉴于我是班上唯一一个会经常主动发言并且名字能被老师基本正确发音的亚洲学生，就此直接就被定为下次课Presentation: Marguerite Duras的生平及其作品选读的不二人选－－－横批：没得商量！

目前的困难在于：

         时间紧任务急，而且没法绕过相关部门……（话又多了）……

         主要问题在于——不是没有资料，而是资料太多无从下手。杜大妈的前前后后里里外外在法国简直无人不知不晓，随便在学生公寓的小图书馆里一搜，都能出来好几十本书，可见老杜的名头之响。。而我，不过是看过她的两部电影：《广岛之恋》（是因为先听了莫文蔚的歌才兴起念头去看的），《情人》（观看的起因是据说有梁家辉和法国美女的若干激情戏...），另外买过3本一套的杜拉斯文集（打折买的，也就刚开封，还在8千公里外的老家某纸箱里埋着）

         我知道国内有为数众多的杜迷，如果有文学青年途经此地，恳请支招。。

那些甘做习惯的奴隶的人
每天按部就班的人
从不改变步调的人
不敢冒险和不敢改变服饰的颜色的人
不敢直言和不敢体验的人
在慢慢死去

                                               ---聂鲁达

it was the first time i have been in the Stade de Gerland, watched a football match about "Olmypique Lyonnaise" vs "FC Barcelona", also my first match of Champions Leagues to watch in  stadium.

      none of brazilians were good on the pitch that night, some of them may have passed their best;

      2 italians who wore number "11", they showed friendship to each other all the time, but none of them were good either on that night;

      all the frenchs on the pitch tried so hard, but they were not good enough, obviously their luck was much better; all the frenchs off the pitch tried also hard, they sang and catcalled, but not loudly enough to terrify their opponents;

was there anything positive in that night?

sure!  Messi was great! Inesta was even better than Messi !   they were 2 of most talented players i have ever seen,  they changed the game to became a good one, and that made my night had much more pleasure.  :)

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for another thing i had my first time to experience---students' strike

(against the new law LRU --- the govemment try to make the public universite self-dependence, students call those kind of universtiy as "private company", that might cause a lots of financil problem for students and even the opportunite to study in university )

after more than one week, this revolution continue, for another week...

every door, every entrance is blocked.

no more students, except us --- foreign students

no more teachers, except those teachers give class for us

Bravo! it's also the first time we foreigners have a privilege.

so now i can still have class "normally", but it seems the strike will last a quite while, coz they look like very  insistent and enjoy it.

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again, it was my first time again,

i saw this ,  a "metro" or a "moving night club" ? :D

for the reason of "la Fête de la Lumière" (fete day of lights), employees of metro change all the lights of metro to the color PINK! and it will keep like this until about 12 December. 

someone just told me that Pink is a color tender and comfortable, okay, that make sense now. anyway, i like them to do some change and make fun, so that's cute, right?  but i think, why not blue?  haha

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so that's my life in these days, so many the first time things, what a new&fresh life ...^_^

Concert de "Lang Lang"

(info:  http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Lang_Lang_%28pianist%29 )

in the last day of the festival ASIEXPO (Asian cinemas & cultures), i went to cinema for a chinese film.

i was supposed to arriver there only few minutes before the film, buy the ticket and enjoy the film in the big but almost empty salle....

But, but... tell u what,  in the small street Joseph Serlin, in front of the small cinema-opera, there were almost 80 persons waiting there to buy the ticket for this chinese film !!  it's kinda big deal in lyon or in france, normaly we cant see so many people gather in the street except when it's a strike (french people have sorte of addiction to strike)

i heard someone who passed by and asked, translate it to english it will be "what the hell is going on here??" 

so i had no idea about that question, i never knew such a low cost chinese film can attract so many french people.

anyway, so i had to stand in a long line for almost 40 mins, just for A ticket which i could hardly get, and luckly i was one of few last people who got the ticket, and unluckly, the staff told me the only place i could sit is the floor in the walkway. so, it was the first time entier my life, i was sitting on the floor to watch a film in the cinema!

it was not so comfortable and my ass was really hurt by the concrete floor of this small poor cinema, but i gonna tell u that i was so happy to watch such a good movie tonight. people kept laughing when they were watching, and they were becoming so silent in the end of the movie. i could  feel the spectators (90% is french people) were moved by this touching story about chinese humanity and culture, it was kinda honor, i felt pround in that time :P

like some guy in imdb commented:

"We do not need the colorfulness in 满城尽戴黄金甲 (Curse of the Golden Flower); we do not need the big movie stars and expensive publicity of 无极 (The Promise); neither do we need the unreal Gongfu in 卧虎藏龙 (Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon). What we need is something from real life."

this is one moive about a real life story, its name is 《You and me》.